Food For Thought: A Note on Ambition
April 17, 2019
Photo By: John Parkinson III |
One of my favorite podcasts - the life coach school podcast - has an episode about ambition that really challenged the way I look at ambition and the reasons why I pursue the things I do. I get so much value from this podcast. Not because I want to become a life coach, but because it focuses on teaching the tools we need to cultivate our minds and control our thoughts and emotions. And since our emotions influence our actions, really this podcast is teaching us how to develop discipline so we can achieve our goals.
I’ve always been a pretty ambitious and driven person. I thrive when I’m in that state, but I never realized the key problematic factors that Brooke points out and anyone who’s ambitious should address.
There’s one question that she repeats during the podcast that made me stop and pause while on my commute to work, “why are you ambitious or why aren’t you ambitious?”
For me, the answer to this question has changed over the years. I used to be ambitious because I thought I had to be an overachiever in order to be valued and to be important. This was not a healthy attitude because I was driven by fear and the belief that I wasn't good enough unless I was achieving great things. And that’s not a sustainable driving factor. This fear led to burnout and depression: two things I’m still actively working to recover from.
And this lead to an interesting chapter in my life... the lack of ambition... because I stopped believing I was capable of getting what I wanted, so I avoided (and have recently been avoiding) taking massive action. This is a mindset I'm battling every day so I can get back to the version of me that follows through on my word to myself... for myself and myself alone.
But then there was this other point that Brooke made that completely disturbed my previous ideas about ambition, success, and achievement. She believes (and I now believe this too) that if you're ambitions because you think you’ll be happier once you achieve x y & z, you’re going to be disappointed. You might be coming from a place of lack instead of learning to be at peace in the moment - and we all know we aren’t promised another moment on this earth, so we should take advantage of the moments we do have.
Fuck... that’s exactly how I’ve lived my entire life!! By chasing external achievements, expecting to be happy when I make a certain salary, find the love of my life, live in that dream apartment/townhome, don’t have to stress about money, am completely debt-free, etc... If I work hard enough, all of these problems will disappear, and I’ll live happily ever after, right? Hahahaha wrong Nia.
Now don’t get me wrong, I will never give up on my dreams and desires. I’ve taken breaks from massively pursuing my goals, but I’ve never given up on them because when I’m growing and overcoming obstacles, that’s when I feel the most inspired, invigorated and fulfilled. Being ambitious is not the issue. Being ambitious because I want to contribute to the world and continue to grow into the person I want to be is a goal I’m very proud of. But when my ambition is driven by lack and fear (aka two things that have been trying to run my life for the past 3 years) and because I think that once I achieve that goal, I’ll finally be happy, that’s when my mental, spiritual and physical health starts to deteriorate. That’s when I start being cruel to myself and telling myself that I have to push harder in order to be worthy of success and love and happiness. But I am already worthy of those things. You are already worthy of those things too.
My main goal of the year was to grow my business, but now my main goal is to stop looking outside myself for fulfillment and a sense of purpose. My name literally means purpose afterall, and I believe our purpose is to focus on becoming the best version of ourselves, regardless of what other people think or say. I want to create a tiered business that serves others, but I want to do so from a place of love, contribution and peace, not from a place of fear, misery or selfishness. And I can’t do that until I heal my relationship with myself. This podcast is helping me do just that. It is a daily reminder that I should let go of shaming myself for not being ”perfect” and not being “good enough”.
This podcast is just one of the critical tools that’s helping me actually learn how to love myself. While I’m learning to love all parts of myself, I’m also learning to appreciate the discomfort that comes with growing into the best version of myself. And that’s a beautiful thing.
Thank you for letting me share my thoughts with you today. I hope you related to something in this post today and feel less alone/scared if you've been battling the same sense of scarcity and fear as I have. I’d love to hear what you’re trying to achieve, whether it’s career-oriented, health-oriented or romance-oriented, ambition can impact every area of our lives. But most importantly, I'd like to hear why you are pursuing that dream. Our job is to make sure that we are pursuing those ambitions for the right reasons. Thanks again for reading. Your support means the world to me. Be sure to leave a comment letting me know your thoughts about the podcast episode linked below! Until next time my friend.
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Sunday Reads: Happy Spring!
April 7, 2019
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Photo by Alina Stiba |
Hi friends,
I'm happy to be back. Sorry, I took a break from the blog last week; I just couldn't make myself write, even though I really wanted to. But instead of beating myself up all week long, I only beat myself up part of the week for blowing off my responsibilities... LOL progress. But hey, baby steps in the right direction add up quickly. I'm proud of myself for not degrading myself all week long for not hitting all of my goals last week. And now it's spring in the city. If you've never been to NYC, Jersey City or Hoboken, I highly recommend making the trip. The weather is actually perfect right now, everyone is a little bit nicer on the sidewalk and rooftops are opening back up for the year.
Between grabbing a great book or inspiring magazine to read along the river or in the park, listening to a stimulating or hilarious podcast while walking around the neighborhood or taking an outside workout class, Spring offers so many opportunities to do small things by yourself, for yourself that feed your soul. I think it's vital to soak up as much sun as possible (while wearing sunscreen of course) while we can before it gets too hot to go on a 20-minute walk without melting. I hope you make sometime this week to go on an evening walk or spend some time in the park next weekend. Scheduling short little breaks are some of my favorite ways to reset and escape the stress of the work week. I hope it works for you too. Now on to the things that caught my eye on the web this week. I hope you can relax and dive into these links below. Happy Sunday my friend.
- Do Good: I've been wanting to spend more time giving back to my local community, and I want to check out some of these volunteer opportunities in Hoboken and Jersey City.
- Shopping Cart - Barcelona Edition:
- There are a few things I want to pick up before my trip to Barcelona at the end of this month. I really need comfy, white sneakers, and these have great reviews! I love Soludos; I have an amazing pair of wedges that are super cute and comfortable, so I have faith in these shoes.
- I really want this romantic red top for Spain.
- Safe Travels: This article has so many good tips for staying safe while traveling as a woman globe trotter!
- In My Hood: I am dying to check out this new restaurant/bar in Hoboken! I'm getting good vibes from the photos. I also am so excited to check out this new food hall in my area! I'm gonna f**k some ish up when I go there and eat everything.
- Live Well: I want to check out these wellness books and documentaries that The Fox and She recommended
- Menu: Uh, I am so excited to cook this! I'm trying to switch to a low card diet/lifestyle and this sounds and looks delicious!
- Speaking of low carb diets, I'm probably going to buy this "bowl cookbook" by this blogger who we've worked with at my company for a few years. It's pretty affordable, and I really want to start cooking more.
- Culture Fix: I HAVE to go to this Jane Eye ballet show! I love going to the ballet. It's such a magical experience.
- LOL: Here are a few more meme accounts that my friend Melody introduced to me or I found on IG. For some reason, taking a 10-minute meme break when I'm stressed out at work is the best thing ever. I've been liking this one, this one (private but hilarious) and this one lately!
- Brunchin in the City: I want to check out all of these places in NYC this spring. Honestly, brunch is my favorite way to bring large friend groups together.
- Rooftop Season: Yeah, I'm also checking out all of these places this season.
- Bing Watch: If you haven't watched Shrill on Hulu yet, I highly recommend it. I love the topics the show discusses. I found it to be pretty relatable and refreshing,
- Food For Thought: This post. The caption really struck a chord with me. I took a second at work and thought about how I’ve reacted to being disrespected and how I want to react with poise and grace. But it also made me realize how much I have to learn and how much I have grown from those negative experiences. It’s a blessing that I can look upon fairly recent experiences with a new set of eyes
Thanks again for taking a minute to read this post. Your support means the world to me. Sending you lots of love and wishing you a great Sunday night.
What's In My Shopping Cart: Amazon & Revolve Edition
March 24, 2019
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Photo by Alexandra Gorn |
Uh, I love Revolve and Amazon! I know that Amazon has done some shady things and Revolve can be a tad expensive, but they both have a hold on me for two simple reasons. Amazon offers affordable, cute items on Prime, and Revolve sells beautiful clothing that legit makes me feel like a princess whenever I wear them. Also, anything you buy on Revolve can be purchased through AfterPay, which means you can pay for everything through 4 installments with no interest!! I love this feature because it allows me to add a few pieces of luxury to my wardrobe without breaking the bank.
I also want to share my outfit details with you guys. I wore this to brunch yesterday, and I felt like a badass the whole day. The top I'm wearing above is from Revolve. I'm OBSESSED with it. I love any and all wrap tops, but the open back with the bow detailing is what makes this top special. It's an added element of sexiness, and I love it. I'm wearing the Flawless High Waisted Skinny Jeggings with an exposed zipper from Talbots. I grabbed them during a sample sale at the office, and I've never loved a pair of jeans more! They fit perfectly and make my butt look pretty damn good. I couldn't find the exact ones on the site but I'm going to keep looking because I need these in white.
The adorable black and white bag I'm wearing is also from Talbots (shoutout to employee discounts). I love it and have been using it every weekend. It's so chic and classic. The black and white color scheme, gold hardware and unusual rectangular structure of the bag are the reasons why I knew I needed to add this purse to my collection. You'll be seeing a lot of it this spring and summer. Last but not least, my white point-toe stilettos are from Aldo. I got them for 50% off last fall, but DSW and Aldo always have great deals, so finding a similar pair shouldn't be too hard. White shoes have been one of my favorite wardrobe staples for a while.
I hope this post inspires you to add a few fun pieces to your spring wardrobe this season. Let me know in the comments below what you've been eyeing online recently. Happy Sunday my friend, and thank you so much for taking a moment to read this post. I appreciate you so much more than you could ever know.
March Mood Board 2019: Spring Inspiration
March 16, 2019
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Photo by Tom Grimbert ; Photo by Earth ; Photo by Paula Borowska ; Photo by Sérgio Rola; Photo by Bee Balogun |
Spring is right around the corner my friends. This past week was actually pretty nice. We saw some warmth and sunshine; it was exactly what I needed. Call me an optimist, but I truly think sping will come early for us this year, which is music to my ears because I'm dying to take my spring wardrobe out of storage!!! I've recently become obsessed with Fallon's wardrobe from the show Dynasty, and I want to emulate it. But I can't really wear blazers and miniskirts without stockings until the weather hits 60. Until then, I'm stuck dreaming of warmer weather and tropical destinations.
This spring, I want to focus on creating a life I'm actually excited about. And I finally realize that in order to achieve this life full of freedom and joy, I have to make a lot of temporary sacrifices. I don't want to work in a freaking cubicle for the next 40 years, and I don't want to worry about my finances. Both of these goals require a lot of hard work and a lot of saying "no". No to some (not all but some) social plans, no to spending extra money and no to fun distractions.
Although I understand that my life is about to become a lot more structured and full of discipline, I don't want to become so laser-focused on my goals that I neglect the other areas of my life. I'm planning to learn as I go and try to take things a lot less seriously. If you know me well, you know that I tend to take everything to the extreme. What can I say? I'm an extra af bitch. But I firmly believe that I have to learn to let go of the things I can't control in order to ascend into the life I desire. So cheers to learning how to go after our dreams while simultaneously swallowing a chill pill in order to avoid driving ourselves crazy.
What are 3 things that you realize you will have to temporarily sacrifice in order to level up in life? Write them down on a pretty piece of stationary and hang it on your wall. Or, share them in the comments below so we can be each other's accountability partners. Wishing you all the love and joy in the world. Thank you so much for taking a moment of your day to read this post. I can't tell you enough how much I appreciate it. Until next time my friend.
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